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Man, it doesn't matter what I watch/read/do lately-- EVERYTHING IS TRYING TO TURN ME CLINICALLY DEPRESSED. I swear, what the hell.

Right now I have to read Beloved for my African-American Lit class, which has on many occasions alluded to cow rape. One of the slave guys in the book lusted after a slave girl for years, and he raped cows to qualm this??? And THEN he finally sleeps with her after 20 freaking years, and he has AN EPIPHANY. He thinks, "Ya know? All those years of lusting and raping cows because I wanted to have sex with her... it wasn't really worth it. It wasn't that good." *STABS THE PSYCHO-BOOK IN A PSYCHOTIC MANNER*

So then I watch an episode of Akihabara@deep, which usually cheers me up, and it just so happens I randomly choose the crazy evil "Bado Raku!" episode, where people OD on drugs and get stuffed in suitcases whilst still foaming at the mouth, and the like.

And then, at work, I get stalked'ish? By a really scary creepy guy? He kept on walking up and having many mini-annoying-conversations with me, trying to get me to give him free food, and then when he wasn't actually talking to me over the counter, he was nearby and glancing at the kiosk a lot. Right at the end of the night too, it appeared he got some money, and ordered something, which was okay... but it was not okay that when I took the trash out at the end of the night, that he was standing near my car in the parking lot. And then when I was coming back in from throwing trash in the dumpster, he was suddenly by the doorway and was watching me. When I walked back out to finally go home, as soon as I thought I was home free, as he appeared to be gone, I heard a "Hey!" right behind me, and he was on a bench about 3 feet away from me. Mou. I might be paranoid, but he had a strangecreepy aura. I may very well freak-out if I see him too much more around the mall -.o;.

SO THEN, after doing some homework after work, I decide to watch the drama Tomo Yanagishita (Pixie/Jet Monster Tenimyu Kaidoh!) is in, Ren ai Shindan, but that totally turned out to be a traumatizing event. Seriously? Can't ANYONE BE HAPPY IN THESE FREAKING SHOWS? Must it always be rapebreakingstuffmurderangstangstangst? I should've known, but I had hope and needed cheering up. So much for that ^^;... I will say it was not a bad drama, though... Okay, actually it was bad, but in the normal OMG-AWKWARD way XDD. Okay, so maybe it did cheer me up a tad XD;... *loved all the random scenes of ANGRY POTTERY BREAKING!* I'm getting happier thinking of all the hilarious'ish-crazy moments, but yeah, watching it straight through WAS A REAL DOWNER.

I'm just gonna stop typing, because it is currently 2:38am, and who knows what jumbled mess is coming out. But I'm afraid to sleep, because I'm pretty sure if I do, I'm going to have cowrapefoamingdrugODcreepystalkermorerapemurderangstangst dreams. And that just doesn't sound appealing to me.

Oh well. Hopefully tomorrow is less trauma to my brain ^^! *tries to occupy self until the day begins*

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moeruze_burning
Nov. 27th, 2007 11:57 am (UTC)
Oh my god, I know just how you feel.

Like there's just that one day where everything you see or do shoots "ANGST" "DEPRESSION" "SAAAADNESSSSS" beams at your forehead at the speed of light.

Even my F-list does on those days. XDDD

*pets*

DID YOU HAVE A DREAM ABOUT ANGRY POTTERY BREAKING? I have to say, other than the sexual acts and naked chests, the pottery breaking was my favorite. XD Ohoho.
snowym
Dec. 30th, 2007 02:23 am (UTC)
I'm still waiting on an awesome dream about awesome pottery smashing XD. Maybe I need to rewatch the happy parts of Renai Shindan again?

THAT SHOW SO HAD THREESOME POTENTIAL, WHY DID IT HAVE TO END SO HORRIBLY?!?!
moeruze_burning
Dec. 31st, 2007 02:33 am (UTC)
I READ REVIEWS OF IT AND DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER FINISHING IT. Some shit like, "MY POOR HEART WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO TAKE IT, NO I'M NOT LAZY AT ALL" Maybe I should rewatch the NECK NUZZLING SCENE that was so ;dfoaihfgdfg;odfighdfg fucking hot. God.

Also. ANGRY POTTERY SMASHING! *LOL I WROTE ANGRY POTTER SMASHING AND THOUGHT OF HARRY POTTER GETTING NAILED UP AGAINST A WALL* I know Ire best for liking the same Western Rock bands that I do, his role as Davide (THOSE LEGS IN THOSE SHORTS OMG), and his ANGRY POTTERY SMASHING. Hee. <3
chibimono
Nov. 28th, 2007 01:10 am (UTC)
Random, but... I think, in that episode of Ren ai Shindan that you were watching... Shiozaki Airu/IRE (RokkakuMyu Dabide!actor) and JURI (BukiMyu Akutsu!actor) were both in it. Ur, if that's the same one I watched parts of. Did it have wings or something in it?

btw, ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Miss M-swan lots. ;_;
snowym
Dec. 30th, 2007 02:27 am (UTC)
CHIBI, ARE YOU THERE? AM I CRYING OUT FOR YOU IN THE DEPTHS OF SPACE, UNHEARD AND UNNOTICED?! I miiiisssss you Chibi ;_;. Life was very kooky for me this last semester, and I'm trying to speed-heal my brain, so I can handle the next/last semester that is coming up WAY TOO QUICKLY. I'll smash my way through ungracefully once again, I'm sure XD;.

What are you up to?

And YES. That was the show I was watching-- Renai Shindan ^__^. Omg, it was so weird/sad/strange/sexy XD;. IRE was gorgeous, srsly. You should watch the whole thing... or maybe you shouldn't, I was torn over whether I wanted to erase certain parts of it from my mind or not afterward XD;;;.
disutansu
Nov. 28th, 2007 04:19 am (UTC)
IT'S JUST PRETTY UM... INTERESTING AT WHAT AUTHORS CAN COME UP WITH??? *sticks to her uber fluff and sap'ness* x-x;;

M-sama you just probably had some bad luck choosing things to watch. OMG YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO WATCH THE UBER DEPRESSING RENAI SHINDAN! At least no one died... Though ugh. Takumi-kun series with Tomo should be more light-hearted. I hope. >.>;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

UM *THREATENS WEIRD CREEPY GUY WITH CROWBAR* M-SAMA, HELEN SHALL PROTECT YOU! *runs to MO right now*

*comforts*
snowym
Dec. 30th, 2007 02:29 am (UTC)
No one died in Renai Shindan? I had the impression at the end that Dabide was going to push himself and wheelchair!Kaidoh into the river, so they could drown together or something. I guess I was wrong XD;? THAT SHOW WAS SO WEIRD. I kinda want to go through and just watch the happy parts again, though ^_^.

Do you have any info on this Takumi-kun show? I totally must watch it XD. Pixie-Kaidoh makes a kawaii BL actor, even if he does look 12 years old XDD.
disutansu
Dec. 30th, 2007 07:35 am (UTC)
I'm SO GOING TO BRING HIM BACK ALIVE AND KILL HIM AGAIN IF HE DOES THAT. XD;;;;;;;; Though I liked his rather painful scream of... helplessness. It gave me the shivers. ;-; I'm glad that no one died. Tomo can't die damnit.

Other than it was based on a manga series. Did you see the trailer to the thing?

Tomo does look young ne? He's so young and sweet and *pinches his cheeks* ^o^

*editing so I can use Tomo!icon*

Edited at 2007-12-30 07:35 am (UTC)
snowym
Mar. 17th, 2008 06:48 pm (UTC)
Well, I'm glad you didn't think they were going to die at the end XD. I seriously had the impression that Dabide kidnapped vegetable-Pixie!Kaidoh from the hospital, and was going to have a sea man's burial (out in that tiny creek-thing XDD).
disutansu
Mar. 23rd, 2008 07:19 am (UTC)
YOU JUST WANT TO MAKE IT MORE DEPRESSING THAN IT ALREADY IS, DON'T YOU!

I like to think of the symbolic rain... all dark and everything right now for them, but then the sun will come through like hope shining down and Tomo will be alright and they'll live HEA with those rape'y violent'y guys in jail. Yes. XD
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