and when I DEFINITELY should be asleep (it's almost 5am), and when I have ZERO energy (once again, it's 5am), I finally was able to write SOMETHING. It's crap, but it's something. It's such a momentous occasion for me, just because I haven't had any desire or will for such things lately, which makes my heart ache ;-;.
So anyway, I'll share, even though it's nothing I'm too proud of, other than the fact that it's the first poem I've written since college graduation XD;. LAME.
random tentative title: I can feel
It's times like these when I know I'm alive
when it feels like all the blood's been sapped from even vein
when all the sleep is gone, seemingly to never return again
It's times like these when I know I'm dead
when another important person has to leave, I'm filled with sorrow
I can hardly drag myself through today, let alone tomorrow
It's times like these when I know I'm here
I'll hold onto this place until I can't, and then even longer
all I can think about are these trials I want to conquer
It's times like these I'd never wish for an end to
There's no question-- I know I'll be able to feel this pain forever
And this happiness is already slipping, even though it's better
I can feel it all, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Slant rhyme, ftw! Okay, so that wasn't the happiest thing I've ever written, but it's not the most depressing either XD;. Here's to hoping I can write more in the future! I feel like such a loser when I don't write ^^;;;;;;;.
NOW I just have to decide whether I'll go to bed, or just stay awake XD;. Forgoing sleep for today is sounding better and better, so I guess I'll hitch the first train out to some random place (of course I'll have to hit a Starbucks for some coffee as a first order of business XD; ). Jya!