M (snowym) wrote,

It's currently about 4am, and I can't sleep ^^;. There's too much to think about. I've been a very ponderous M as of late. Too many people to say goodbye to, too much to look forward to.

Two days until the trip to Japan.

I said goodbye to Lebecca last week, when we went out for sushi. Tonight I watched Velvet Goldmine with Mehan, and we "tee-hee'd!" at the pr0n-y'ness of it all, and then we picked up Robert and hung out at Taco Bell for awhile. I also talked to Stallion for awhile on the phone today, and I have to ring up all my homies (*flashes gang signs at Kishu, Helen, and Chibi*) once more tomorrow and talk for awhile, or else I might cry. I'll probably cry anyway -.o;. I also get to see my brother tomorrow, and will get to chat over some eatin' with him. I thought I wasn't going to get to see him again before I left, but apparently he's getting a few days of break from the national tour he's taking with his friend's band (Happy Endings). For that, I couldn't be happier. I'm going to miss not being able to talk to everyone on a regular basis. It's kind of funny that it takes such a complex web of people to help me keep my sanity ^^;. I'll have that ripped away from me for awhile, so hopefully I'll be able to make it.

It still hasn't quite sunk in that I'm actually going to get to go to Japan. I just feel a bit more heartbroken each time I say goodbye to another person. But I'll be back in four months, and latch onto everyone like never before I'm sure. I desperately need my world turned on it's head for awhile, and this is certainly doing that ^^;. I'll have Noa with me, and I'll still be in contact with all my friends through e-mail, so it's not like I'll be alone. I'm the mastah at ignoring homesickness, so let's see what happens when I'm on the other side of the world for 1/3rd of a year ^^;. Everyone cheer me on, because this shall be my most interesting journey yet. I'll gladly deal with the heartache, if I can get out of this terrible rut I've been in.

So yes, that was my blab at 4am, just ignore it. I don't even know if it makes sense, I'm just a ball of strange'ness lately. I'll deal. For someone who's a crazy anti-social girl, I've sure got a lot of people supporting me ^^;. Ever since I've graduated from being able to count my friends on one hand to two, I've felt like the luckiest girl in the world ^^;;;.

[/end 4am drivel]

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